Tell Him We Miss Him!!!

Tell him how much we miss him, and give him all our Love

He said no one a last farewell, and said goodby to none.

Although his soul is now at rest, and free from worry and care

The world would would seem like heaven, if we had him back again.

It broke our hearts to lose him, but he did not go alone.

For part of us went with him, A precious one from us is gone.

A voice is still, God gave us the strength to face it, The courage to meet the blow, But what it meant to loose him, No one will ever know. (written by Mindy)



16 years ago today Mickey passed away. The poem was written by a friend of his. I can't believe that it has been so long. It seems just like yesterday that I got the news. The hurt is still very much there. So I just want to say Mickey I love you and Miss you very much!! *HUGS* N *KISSES*

Missing Mickey.................

I had to write this tonight since I am not soo emotional about all of this as it gets closer it becomes harder for me to talk about...

So tonight I am sitting here missing Mickey.. Who is Mickey? Some of you may ask. Well he was born William Micheal on August 6,1975 and he is my brother. On Feb 17, 1993 he took his life at the age of 17? Why? Well we really don't know. I along with mom and dad think now that he was bi-polar. But that wasn't known back then. He was a great little brother. I mean we fought alot. But we would do anything to protect the other. I hate that he is gone. It kills me that I could do nothing to help him. I will never forget the phone call that I got that day at work. And quite often really mad about what he is missing like the birth of his daughter! And meeting Bobby, missing my wedding, and for hurting my mom and dad the way he did. But most of all I get mad for how sad me makes me feel even to this day.

When he died he was a Senior in High School..He had such a big heart he would do anything for his friends or family. He played football and baseball.

I just want him to know that I miss him very much.. And I want to say I love you...

The end of another week....

Okay on my last post I was doing soo much better than I was the week before. This week started off good. But by the end of the week it pretty much sucked. My sister in-law Lynn lost her Dad on Thursday and then my Husbands Uncle died on Friday....Hubby seems to be doing pretty good right now. Last night when he was talking about his cousin's kids and how she just couldn't tell them that they were never going to see their Grandpa again. It was really sad for me to see the tears in his eyes.. I have a really hard time with seeing a grown man cry, you know they just don't do that. So like he did for me last week during my melt down I just hugged him.. He seems much better today.


I spent today with my niece and she seems to be doing pretty good. We went to visit my Grandpa, there really hasn't been any change with him. So at least right now he hasn't gotten any worse. I just don't think that I could take anything happening to him right now. I all ready want to skip the months of Jan and Feb.

But anyways I am trying to not dwell on the bad things in life, and look forward to the good things like Hubby's b-day,Nita having Baby Ricky, Daddy's b-day, and oh yea don't let me forget the GIRLS weekend in August when I believe I will be going to Michigan with Sarah,Tara and Penni for NASCAR races!! Nope I don't believe that I am going I know that I am going!!

Well I really don't have much more to say so I will stop rambling now...

Till I post again.... *HUGS*